fuck panic attacks
it’s like fucking junior year all over again
writing letters on my grandfather’s typewriter instead of doing german work
now my fingers are covered in ink, my neck hurts, and my german homework isn’t done yet.
Anonymous asked: I used to love the bulletins you posted on myspace. (as lame as that sounds) They were really introspective and insightful, as well as questioning, and now I realise that tumblr is the perfect place for posts like those! Too bad we didn't have tumblr back in middle school.
ahahha, ohh that’s embarrassing. i can’t believe a single person read those.
things that have made this weekend innumerable amounts of wonderful:
FRIDAY
-a really good friday
-napping after classes got out
-listening to john lennon all the way to eugene
-the cute guy on the way to eugene
-seeing all my friends from south eugene
-that feeling that state wasn’t over because of et cetera
-the really enjoyable music in the show
-alex’s velvet jacket
-backstage
-the cast party
-the bonfire
-the lights
-the tree we climbed
-the pictures we took
-mainly just the people in general
-the massages
-hearing that our symphony took first
-the really attractive guys that south eugene just breeds or something
-not needing a jacket, even after midnight
-the same pattern of elah, justin, and lena
-sleeping like a rock
SATURDAY
-buying coffee for spice and i
-seeing spice and trading her a coffee and a muffin for a graduation cap
-deciding to sit in the grass and pass a little time catching up
-the conversation
-spending over an hour discussing college and spice and eugene and life
-deciding to go shopping
-my mom being real nice about money
-the real nice lady at the bank
-new birkenstocks
-new maxi dress
-new lace tank top
-new high waisted shorts
-cow mug mother’s day present that my mom really liked
-the sun as we walked
-gorgeous downtown eugene
-the flowers and the smells
-THE PIZZA
-the colors
-taking fun pictures
-listening to john lennon all the way home
-the drive back going faster than the drive down
-hanging with allison
-getting to see my step mom
-seeing my mom (finally)
-eating a real nice dinner listening to the real nice music they played on npr
-dressing up real nice and going to dallas’ prom to assist the photographer
-seeing friends from dallas
-looking at everyone’s dresses
-getting to spend time with a real cool lady (sara patrick)
-the looks i got at the gas station (lol)
-sleeping like a rock
SUNDAY
-waking up early but not tired
-purchasing my one way train ticket to pennsylvania for august
-ordering my prom dress
-going out to breakfast with my mommy
-her face when she saw the cow mug
-looking at all the pictures from friday/saturday
-laying out in the sun to read mockingjay
-the smell of the first sunscreen of the year
-the hot hot sun
-the bugs pretty much leaving me alone
-my 2 liter water
-finishing the hunger games series
-my step mom saying we could use the beach house (!!!)
-being happy and clean and a little more tan than i was this morning
life is good
