CIGARETTES ARE NOT THE ANSWER
i mean this is when my alarm would go off any way but i’m already dressed and awake so like
so with tech and all i drink a lot of coffee to keep me going until i get all my homework done (usually around 4:30 or 5:30am) and by that time i’m not usually sleepy so last night i drank to get myself drowsy and i am considering doing it again but i have class in two hours and i’m not sleepy at all so i’m trying to decide if i should just keep myself busy until 8 so i can go to class or if i should drink so i can go to bed (and prolly sleep through my morning classes)
ugh i guess i’ll just stay up and do research or something
above the influence lol
9:30-10:45am Reasoning and Argument
2:00-3:15pm Philosophy of East/West
upside: i have my ticket home for may
downside: it was a full month’s paycheck
side: i’m not feeling panic-y!
resolution: shut up about money
i turned off everything to hear the train whistle.
there was no train whistle.
Break something like my arm
on the bright side i’ve sort of lost my appetite
the shape of an evening
paralyzing anxiety. halted.
pointing upwards, but heading south she smoked a cigarette.
at a stand still she wasted some time on the internet.
climbing up, she said “roof of ettinger.”
up a fire escape to the roof of the wescoe house.
sitting on a blanket, upward gaze.
a quick sandwich and a few pieces of pineapple. accelerate.
float. on a couch in the writing center.
pushing onward, the emergency brake accidentally engaged.
almost midnight. skunk spotted on the way home, detour.
roundabout through moyer, pause to listen to an a cappella group practicing in the stairwell.
view from the top of a hill. quiet. okay.
not even the sun is enough to keep this crazy anxiety at bay
obligatory “i just chopped off all my hair” selfie
today’s the day folks! kissing my long hair goodbye.